Join me in the
Five Minute Friday Challenge hosted by Lisa-Jo Baker. Participants write for 5 minutes
with no editing, no over thinking, and no backtracking. This week’s word is: Mercy.
(Go)
So I did something
the other day I shouldn’t have. I read a blog post. Yup. Guilty as charged. It
was in fact a very good article - about how this particular lady organises her
afternoons.
I won’t say who
she is or provide a link for you. Not because I don’t want you to read it.
(There were lots of great tips) But
rather that it just wasn’t a good choice for me. I generally avoid
conversations about housework and what others can achieve in a given timeframe
as I just can’t. I find it disheartening to know that what would be considered
a good week for me, is somebody else’s afternoon. Not even a whole day!
It really
didn’t help. It was the final shove I didn’t need to push this exhausted,
inadequate Mama over the edge and into depression. I have no-one to blame but
myself. And I have spent a good chunk of the week battling those inner voices
and struggling to smile much. So I let myself be sad. My eyes persistently
leaking as I once again mourned what doesn’t belong to me; deciding that I
might as well embrace my feelings and acknowledge them instead of wishing them
away.
The beautiful
thing in all of this? He met me there. Held my hand. Let me cry for a while.
Then a bit more. Gently lifting my chin He offered to take my pain, my
frustrations, my shortcomings. Reminded me that it’s okay not to be perfect…
That I am loved in spite of me.
Hebrews 4:15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to
empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every
way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. 16 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive
mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. (NIV)
(Stop)
Now, your
turn…
So touching, Lizzy. I'm glad you find yourself in Him because that's where we all are known and loved by a love that never ends!
ReplyDeleteAmen! and indeed! Blessings to you :)
DeleteIt's that comparison game trap! I have done it before too. That sort of stuff gets us in to trouble as we can't BE someone else. Sorry it got you down in the dumps :(. There are gifts you have been given that others who can clean houses in a whipstitch just may not have. We just all excel in different areas , making the most of what we have been given. So glad you were able to find solace in God though. Hugs and love to you! Sometimes we just need to allow ourselves to feel whatever we feel, huh?
ReplyDeleteYep, the trap. The telling ourselves to 'get over it', the ignoring, the wishing it away. I've done it too much and as low as I felt, I think I needed it in a way. To be real with myself and learn to accept where I'm at. But you're right, I may struggle in this area but there are other things that I can do well. Thank you for your perspective. I needed that. Hugs xx
DeleteOh friend, I get this. I read so many blog posts that get me all down in the dumps because I feel like I can't measure up! It's so hard just to allow ourselves to be ourselves at times. I am thankful God met you there, in that place and lifted you up! He's so good! Blessings for a beautiful weekend!
ReplyDeleteThank you Barbie. It's a beautiful thing to know that we don't walk this path alone - others share the same struggles and our great God walks with us too. So far the weekend is working out pretty good. Have a wonderful one yourself :)
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